After several (read: several hundred...) failed attempts to lose weight after having a child, I decided to ask for a little help in the form of a dietary supplement. We'll see if this supplement helps to give me a jump-start and motivate me to finish the race, or if it's just another hoax. We'll see.
The bottom line... I eat extremely healthy. I keep my calories low. I eat a well-balanced diet full of nutritious meals that I make from scratch. I exercise. And yet, I don't lose weight... in fact, if I STOP exercising for say, a week, I typically gain 10 lbs. REALLY?! WTF!
So this is it... I must live a physically active lifestyle, day in and day out. No excuses, poor weather or not, I must be active. I must lose the weight to BE active, and I must BE active to lose the weight... which came first, the chicken or the egg?????????????
Today is the first day on my supplements. Don't judge me. I'm bringing everything out in the open... hiding the truth of MY reality won't allow me to heal. I became fat because I hid from reality of SMALL weight gain, which led to more weight gain, and before I knew it my weight was spiraling dangerously out of control.
Today, I feel fantastic. FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC. I feel, for the first time in years, that there is hope for me. I'm not destined to be fat forever. Fat is NOT ME. Fat is suffocating me. FAT is preventing me from living my life. FAT is NOT ME. NOT ME!!
I weighed in at 260 lbs today. Technically, I'm not supposed to weigh every day. But for the first week I will, just to see what I need to tweak, if anything. After week 1, I'll move to weekly weigh-ins on Wednesdays or Thursdays.
I ate like crap for half of today. I wasn't expecting my supplement to come in the mail (but it did), and I wasn't planning to begin my journey today... but I did. Who cares if you don't start off the day "right"?! Just jump in the freaking game and GIT R DONE. So once my supps arrived, I said to myself, "Okay, now it's time. Just DO IT. From here on out, take care of yourself. Starting NOW!!!!!!!"
So, the afternoon went well. I guzzled my water like an olympic tri-athlete. I didn't snack on anything out of sheer boredom. If it wasn't "time" to eat, I didn't eat. Plain and simple.
OH, and I managed to squeeze in a 1/2 hour cardio workout while my child was taking his afternoon nap.
For dinner I had 3 BBQ chicken wings, a smidgen of salisbury steak, mashed potatoes, a cup of steamed brocoli w/ sauteed onions. Not ideal, but realistic for "take-out". I can't expect to live the rest of my life never eating take-out, never eating anything at social engagements, never having a slice of birthday cake, etc. Balance and moderation are what I am striving for here. My husband likes take out once in a while... I think my meal was way better than having fried calamari and pepperoni pizza. So there >:P
If the weather is nice tomorrow, I'll take my son for a walk. If not, well then I guess it's another work-out video during naptime. We've had a hell-ish few weeks of rain (every... single... gosh-be-darn minute!!) so it sure would be nice to get OUT of my freaking house.
OH PS -- my weekly weight-loss goal is 2 lbs per week. AND, I am starting a "pounds-for-pennies" jar... each weigh-in-day, I will put in $5 per pound lost. If I gain weight, I take the money out and hide it... not being able to put it back until the weight is lost again. So, if I lose 20 lbs, I'll have $100. If I lose 100 lbs, I'll have $500 in there to buy a new wardrobe. That is my goal... a jar full of money to blow on fun new (and SMALL) clothes when I'm finally at a comfortable weight.
Money is such a wonderful motivator, eh? To bad I couldn't set up some sort of pay-pal "No More Fatty Mom" fundraiser/pledge thingy, to get all of my friends to chip in even $.25 per pound lost. Then I'd REALLY be motivated to see how much money I could make, HAH! Oh well.
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